I almost forgot about the post today so it's late, but still coming on day 2. Today I wrote 2,118 words bringing the total word count to 4,607. I wrote for about an hour and a half and I ended the first chapter, and I started about 2 sentences of chapter 2. Today I will be sharing an internal monologue from my character Phoebe, and a conversation and some monologue with my other MC Lizzie and her best friend that is not a family member Anya. The music today was The Great Comet 2012 off Broadway Cast. Over all it was a good day, I aimed for 5k, but I never got there today.
When she was ready and less confused about her own feelings than she would talk to her family, being the last person in her family to have never had a relationship she wasn’t sure what she was going to say. In her heart of hearts she knew that she knew that she wasn’t a straight person, but it was the labelling what exactly she was that she was having trouble with and how her family would take it. Their reaction to the news would be one of the most important things to her, because she didn’t want to them to treat her any differently when they found out and she had an internal fear this would happen. It also didn’t help her current situation that she herself was worried about the label, what exactly was she and she knew that she really shouldn’t put a label on it but she knew if she didn’t, than she would be even more confused than she was now. The funny thing was that this was the only thing in her life that she was legitimately confused about, because she just didn’t know and this aaded to the stress that she was already stressed out about. Honestly, she wanted an answer a definitive answer for these feelings that she was having, and nobody could tell her the answer but herself. It also didn’t help that she was having these feelings that she was hurting Rhi her one of best friends, but what was she supposed to do she didn’t just want to say yes and then hurt Rhi’s feelings if it didn't work out for the two of them.
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Lizzie had a person that she was best friends with as well, Anya they had met at the time when Phoebe had met Rhi all those years ago and they were both people that just clicked as friends. “ Anya hey how’s it going” Lizzie exclaimed as she was walking into their second period of the day, but the first class that the two of them had together she really wanted to know how her friend was doing. “Lizzie it’s going really well thanks how was your night last night” Anya was one more knowledgeable than Lizzie was and both of them knew this, and both od them had learned to accept this fact over the years. “ My night was good, Phoebe is still really resistant about finding our birth mother and I’m still wondering why she is so worried about finding out mother, I just don’t understand her and the way that she thinks sometimes.” Maybe she shouldn’t have shared that much, but she was just so frustrated with her twin sister, and the fact that she wouldn’t say why she was acting the wya that she was acting. “I know that you might not want to hear this, but I understand what Phoebe is thinking and I know that I’m not in the same situation but I totally get it, I understand what might be going through your sister's head and in a way I agree with her.” It might have been odd for Lizzie to hear Anya say this but she was just saying what she was thinking, and in a way she was saying something that Lizzie didn’t want to hear as she wanted her friend, well she wanted her friend to side with her and not with her sister because that’s why Lizzie said it.
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